surfing
after surfing the net and hoping to find some nice people to talk to, i decided to write something just to ease some tension on my mind.
been 3 days that something’s boggling me. i am feeling a shooing away of things i wanted to be in solitaire in order to get things clear. problems are left and right and it seems to be no stopping them.
as i leave my house, there i leave the troubles and fears. and now comes more troubles for my career and endless demands to finish things and dispatch them with flash.
and it seems there’s no stopping them.
they attack from my back like a dog released from its chains. from my left and right there seems to be endless like water from the well. and as i search for a refuge, nothing comes my way. everything and everyone seems to be in rage.
ive been wanting to take a break from the traffic that consumes me everyday. but there seems to be no escaping the fate that i chose to be with. if only Superman (or Supergirl) would come to rescue me out of the fire, then there would be peace. at the least maybe.
i would lie on the bed like a fallen leaf and would let the wind carry me in his arms to everywhere where there is less of grief, suffering and horror. less anger, more peace. a paradise for solitaire.
but then, just minutes away from the real world, the truth would come flashing again. torturing me and haunting me. inescapable, i surrender in defeat knowing there is nothing for me to do to heal the wounds that severes pain.
then with the last straw of strength, i rise and look up the sky, if indeed Superman still fly. or will i just be a willing prey to predators of my future.
